What To Do, What To Do?

It seems like I'm at a crossroads in my life where I need to figure out which direction I need to go. I've seriously been thinking about moving to Vegas and getting a job in a casino. I love that city, and I really think it would fit me well. I also know it would be easier to try to make it playing poker, but I know that I still have a long way to go in that, and I'm not going to try to rush it. I mean, how could you pass this up?


On the other hand I could stay here and try to save money to buy a house. If I do that, I have to find a new job. When Ozzy Osborne wrote "Road to Nowhere", I think he was talking about my job. It is such a dead end job, and everyday I go in there I feel like such a sucker. I look at it as I'm losing money not having a better job, rather than making money. To put it in poker terms, this job has me "drawing dead". So if anyone knows of any jobs, give me a call and let me know about em'!

On the poker front things are looking about the same. Had a rough night last night and dropped $60, but got most of it back tonight. I got a sweet bonus for referring my dad to Bodog, so I'm trying to play enough hands to clear that. I also used my money to deposit for him, so I'm playing that to clear his bonus. I don't trust him to play it...he's not very good!

Well...that's all I've got. Til next time, keep dreamin!

" We know what we are, but know not what we may be."

Life's Been Pretty Boring

The reason I haven't posted in awhile is because I don't really have too much to talk about. Life has been pretty boring lately, so there has been nothing worth sharing.

I had a good weekend this weekend. Got to hang out with some friends I don't normally get to hand out with, so that was cool. We played in a softball tournament, but we got SPANKED every single game, so that sucked.

Haven't really made too much money playing poker online, but I've been slowing creeping my way back up. Hopefully I can get a big score in a tournament, but that hasn't happened yet so I'm not holding my breath.

I just finished the book "One of a Kind: The Rise and Fall of Stuey "The Kid" Ungar". It was a great book, and made me wish that I had the natural talent for cards that he was blessed with. It also made me sad that someone with that talent couldn't defeat his personal demons, and ended up paying the ultimate price. I highly recommend it to anyone who likes poker.

That's all until next time...cheers!

" Failure is the messenger of success."

So Much For Posting More Often!

I've been so busy I can't even see straight. I've also been really tired. I think I might go to the doctor for a physical, I shouldn't be this tired. I did get a chance to read the new book "The Professor, The Banker, and The Suicide King". It is terriffic. I recommend checking it out if you even remotely like poker. Reading that book makes me realize how much I want to be a professional poker player and live that lifestyle...but it also made me realize how far away I am. I'm still not going to quit trying, but we'll see what happens.

Well, that's all for now. Don't really have much to say.

" No matter how hard things may seem, the diamond of your soul is harder."

I'm Baaaccckkkk!

Well, I've decided to move my blog back here. I just like the setup and the look better. I know I've said it before, but I'm going to start posting at least 4 times a week if possible. So for the probably 2 people who might read this...you'll have more to read soon!

Last week saw me lose about $200 playing online, and it was rough to take. I really think that if I wasn't as mentally strong as I am, I might start to get depressed with everything going on in my life right now. The $200 loss just added to the frustration. But what can you do...I played well for the most part until I tilted off the last $50. I'm over it.

Well now my bankroll is down to about $500. I have $135 on UB and $300 on Gamesgrid. So I decide I'll start playing the $10+$1 6-handed sit n go's on UB. It worked out pretty well as I cashed (1st or 2nd) in the first 6 I played. So I'm up to about $220 on UB. Then last night I sat at the $1-$2 dealers choice game on Gamesgrid and won about $50 in about half an hour. I key hand was in 7 card stud.

My hand started out with K J 5 all spades, with the K showing. On 4th street I caught the J of clubs...this helped, but at this point I was still looking for the spade flush. Well, on 5th street I caught another Jack, and this gave me trips, but my lone opponent continued to call my bets. He now had the A Q 5 of spades showing for his own spade flush draw. I caught a blank on 6th street, but continued to bet it, and once again I got called. Well, I caught another King on the river, giving me Jacks full of Kings. Although I didn't see it, I think the other guy made his Ace high spade flush, because when I bet he raised me. I obviously reraised, and he just called. I took down like a $30 pot in $1-$2...not too bad.

Well today has been a different story. When I quit last night I was up to about $570 total. So far today I've played 3 sit n go's (playing a 4th right now) and I haven't cashed yet, so I'm down about $33...which sucks. I'm playing solid, but cards just aren't falling. For example, last sit n go I lost. I had AK, and raised before the flop. I was reraised by the player to my left, and I called. The flop was K Q 9. I pushed all in...he called and showed 10 10. Well the river brought the Jack to give him a straight and that's all she wrote for me. Just a little rough patch, I'll fight through it.

I think I'm going back to Vegas for about a week right before Christmas. Now I know this may be a little out there, but I'd like to have my bankroll up to about 5 grand by then. I've got alot of work to do, and I've got to get alot better, but I think I can do it...we'll see I guess.

That's all for now...God Bless

" You are the world's greatest, when you say you are."

Poker Blog

Blog has moved...check it out here

http://www.jaysonweber.com/blog/Poker-Blog-shawnjustice.php

I'm gonna try this place out, and if I don't like it, I'll move it back here. Check it out!

Why?

Well, I just found out the other day that my uncle has cancer. That sucks. It makes me wonder why God does the things that he does. This uncle was in a car accident about 7 or 8 years ago and was severly burned, lost a few fingers, and still feels the affects every day...so why does he have to go through this too? It's just not fair. This makes me look at my poker experiences in a different light though...poker is just a game...not life or death.

Lately I've just been spinning my wheels in poker...not winning, not losing. There are somedays where I just want to quit, but quitting isn't in my blood. It's simply not an option. So I'll continue to try to make my way through the minefield that is low limit poker, and hopefully be able to score a tourney win soon.

Life is pretty blah right now...I have nothing to look forward to, people around me are dying, and I hate my job. It's just one of those gray stretches everyone goes through, but it sure sucks...gotta find something to pick me up. Hopefully something good will happen soon, but I'm not counting on it. I honestly feel like I couldn't be more lonely than I am right now. I need to find someone to hang out with...preferably a girl :-) We'll see what happens. Enough of this deep stuff, next post will be all about poker, and hopefully it'll be good news!

" No matter how many times you fail at something, you are never a failure until the day you quit trying."

Isn't Life Grand?

Well...Ive just been hanging out and trying to figure out the best way to build my bankroll...haven't quite figured it out yet. I tried 1-2, but that game is so hard to beat due to the chasers, I can only beat it when I'm playing my best, and that's hard to do all of the time. I need to find away to get the roll up to about $1,500 or so...that way I can play 3-6 comfortably. I'm pretty sure I can beat that game, because there are still fish, but it costs them alot more to draw, so the bad beats don't come as often. I still have a long way to go to be a good player, but I'm on my way...Hopefully I can keep improving. Well, that's all for now.

"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die tomorrow."

3 Day Weekend?

This past weekend felt like it was one long day, not 3 and ½ days. I left work at 11 a.m. on Friday, because I was making a trip to Biloxi, Mississippi to see my cousin, and to play some poker down there. Before I start this long rant, I'm going to tell you about my trip to the Westerville Armory on Thursday night.

Well, I heard about this charity casino that is held at the Westerville Armory every weekend. I figured I'd be doing myself a disservice if I didn't check it out, so Thursday after work I went to see what it was about.

It doesn't have a casino feel at all, but it's an organized limit poker game, and you can't find too many of those not on the internet. There is a rake taken out for charity, which is what allows this game to take place. Without that, it would be illegal in Ohio. It was a good experience, and a good payday too.

I ended up making $140 in 2 hours! That's unreal for a 3-6 game. The players there are not good at all, but I did catch a few hands that allowed me to maximize my profit. Ironically, the only hand I'm going to share is one that I lost. I feel like I played it as well as possible, and hands like these make me think that I'm close to becoming a very, very good player.

Ok, a player in 1st position raises to $6, and I call in late position with AK. I thought about putting in a reraise here to see where I was at, but with 6 people in the pdidn't really didn't think it would accomplish anything. The flop comes down A Q 9, and the raiser checks. I bet $3, and the raiser check raises to $6. Now I'm thinking he either has AQ or a set of Q's or 9's. Given his apparent skill level (or lack thereof, who knows), these are all hands that he could have raised in early position with. So I call his raise with every intention of folding if I don't improve on the turn. Well...the turn comes King, which gives me top 2 pair. While this could have filled a straight draw, I'm still pegging him on AQ or a set. If he has AQ, I have him dominated, and if he has a set, I'm screwed. So I check and call it down, and he shows AA. I didn't really expect that hand, but I was very proud of myself for the fact that I was going to correctly lay down my top pair top kicker hand until I improved on the turn. I've talked to a few people, and they said there is no way I could have lost less on that hand. I was just surprised how well I read him, and that if the king doesn't come, I lose hardly anything.

Back to the trip to Biloxi. It was supposed to take 14 hours to get there, so that would have put us there at 2 a.m. Saturday morning. Well, as soon as we roll in to Kentucky, we get stuck in a traffic jam that lasts 3 HOURS! It was unbearable!

We finally get to Biloxi about 5 in the morning, and get 1 ½ hours of sleep. So Saturday my cousin gives us the tour of the town, and then we go to the casino to play some $4-$8. We sit down, and I don't win a hand for an hour and a half! I was catching cold cards, but playing with discipline. About 3 hours in, after floating around $150 for awhile, my flush loses to a full house when some RETARD fills up on the river. He was calling any bet with any 2 cards the whole day, and sucked out on me for a $150 pot. Needless to say, I was furious, and I played bad the rest of the session. I ended down $130. It sucked pretty bad.

That night we went out to dinner with my cousin and checked out a few of the casinos we hadn't been to, and then called it a night. We planned on waking up early and heading to the casino to play some more poker.

Well we got to the casino about 11:15 a.m. and sat down for some more $4-$8. I started off losing, but by the time we left at 3:30 p.m., I was up about $75. I hit a few sets, and played pretty well, so I wasn't feeling too bad about yesterday. We stopped at 3:30 to head to the barbeque at my cousin's house.

My cousin makes some good barbeque! He has his own sauce, and it's pretty good. So we ate and chilled out there for a couple hours, and then packed our stuff up. The plan was to head to the casino and play until about midnight, and then head back to Ohio. We got to the casino and started playing about 7, and I lasted until about 9. I didn't play my best, and I was getting sucked out on like crazy. Some guy calls a raise to $8 before the flop with 4 6, calls a $4 bet on the flop, and hits and his INSIDE straight draw on the turn to take a huge pot away from me when I had TPTK. Now I know people like that are what allow people like me to make money playing poker, but damn...it's frustrating when things like that happen to you. I lost $150 in that 2 hour session, to put my down $200 for the weekend. Not as successful as I had planned.

Well we got back to Marion at 11:30 in the morning on Monday, and I slept all day. Nothing to report on for that day.

Yesterday I lost $40 more playing online. I lost $25 when my top 2 pair lost to an inside straight draw, and $25 more when my Ace high flush lost to a straight flush. I ended up getting $10 of it back, so that's how we arrived at $40. Things haven't really been going my way the past couple of days, but I'm going to fight through it and turn it around. Despite the recent losses, I really feel like I'm coming close to playing some amazing poker, and I think I can break through soon and really start to make some money. Let's hope so, this losing stuff is overrated. It sucks.

Well that's all for now...hopefully some good news on the poker front soon...I'll try my best. Here are a few pics from the trip. Enjoy!


Troy and I



The front of the Beau Rivage


Troy, Pounds and I

" If you encounter difficulty, don't change your decision to go, change your direction to get there."

Back from Biloxi...

...and I'm beat. Slept 1.5 hours on Friday night, and no sleep on Sunday night, so I'm exhausted. The trip details will come tomorrow, but it was a blast. Who would've ever though I'd say this...but I could live in Mississippi! Peace out.

"Welcome to the grossness of poker. If you have an ace high flush, someone will have a full house. If you have a full house, someone will have quads. If you have quads, the lights will go out in the casino and someone will grab your chipstack."

It's Been Awhile...

...since I've posted anything worthwhile on here. Nothing worth posting really.

I got 2nd in a $20 buy in live tournament on Friday night with 25 players. I got $120 for my efforts. But then yesterday I proceeded to lose $140 playing 2-4 on Full Tilt. I was getting outdrawn like you wouldn't believe! But, I could have saved a few bets here and there, and I proceeded to give my money away on a few hands. That's my biggest weakness in limit hold em'. I always call the extra bet when I know I'm beat, and that's something I'm trying to get better at. Limit Hold Em' is really a different strategy, and it involves laying down good hands like overpairs, or top pair with top kicker frequently. That's something I'm learning to do, but it's not easy!

Friday I'm leaving for Biloxi, Mississippi to see my cousin Troy. Pounds is going with me, and I think it's going to be a pretty fun trip. I imagine we'll be discussing poker quite a bit, and we're gonna play at a few of the casinos down there. I'm pretty pumped for the whole thing.

I also bought some new poker chips that were pretty expensive, so I'm gonna cut back on the money spending for awhile! I did hear about a charity casino down the road from our house, so I might try to hit that up the weekend after next and see if I can make a little money. Should be a good learning experience anyways.

Well...that's all for now, have a good day!

" I will not accept fear, weakness, or failure. The only defeat I will accept is a matter in which is out of my hands. Therefore I will reach out my hands and change it."

Big post coming tomorrow. Haven't had much time to post, but I have been thinking about what to write for awhile. I'm gonna try to get to this more than once a week, I've been slackin'!

"Before you criticize someone, walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you'll be a mile away and you'll have their shoes."

A Little No-Limit Hold Em' and Daniel Negreanu

Yesterday was a terrific day. I had the opportunity to play in a Charity Texas Hold Em' tournament and meet my poker idol, Daniel Negreanu. The tournament was a blast, but meeting Daniel and gettin a few pics with him was the highlight of the day.

As for the tournament, we started with 2000 in chips and the blinds started at 5-10, going up every 10 mins. The blind structure sucked, but they were forced to do it that way with that many people. There were 330 people at 33 tables, and each table played down to 1 winner, shoot out style. I was fortunate enough to win my table, and I received a $40 Best Buy gift card for winning, which was cool because we only paid $10 to get in. Sadly I didn't make the final table. My cards were awful, and with the blinds going up so fast, it was hard to do anything. My last hand saw my QJ offsuit lose to AA. Oh well, it was a blast!

Daniel is as down to earth as he seems on TV, and really seemed to be a geniunely good guy. While he was signing autographs, he did steal my sharpie.. He owes me now. Hopefully I can pay him back one day at the final table!

It was truly a great time, and made me want to pursue playing poker professionally even more. I'm still gonna stick it out and see what happens...I think someday I'll be able to make it. I have to get much better though.

Here are some pics from yesterday:
http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/s_dogg1032/album?.dir=/6197

"I am in control of my own destiny"

A Humbling Experience

Last night I had the chance to visit the Vietnam Veterans Memorial Wall. Not the one in Washington D.C., but a replica about 1/10 of the size that has been traveling around the country. I made the trip with my parents, and I'm very glad I had the chance to see it. Now...I don't pretend to know everything involved with the War, or even all the politics, because I wasn't alive then. But it really makes me sick to think of how the soldiers were treated when they returned. While I understand alot of Americans didn't agree with the war, it's not like the soldiers wanted to be over there. They were simply following orders and serving their country. There were more than 58,000 people killed over in Vietnam, and to think that the soldiers that came back were treated the way they were treated really just makes me sad.

My dad served in the war, and actually was awarded a bronze star with a V, which indicates "bravery in ground combat", when his helicopter had to land in the jungle to save another crew whose helicopter had been shot down. It was a very humbling experience seeing my father react to all the exhibits and things that were present at this event. I really had never seen him like that, and I could almost see him reliving some of his experiences right there in front of me.

On the ride home, the subject of Jane Fonda came up. What she did in Vietnam is an absolute act of treason, and she should have been put in jail. That women absolutely disgusts me, and I will never see a movie she is in.

Well, I'm not sure what the point of this post is other than to share with everyone what a humbling experience that was. Everyone of us Americans should be grateful for what those soldiers did, and what the soldiers of today do to protect our freedoms.

God Blesss

"Lest We Forget"

Well I was right...almost

Last time I said I felt like I was right on the cusp of a big score via poker, and I was ALMOST right. This weekend, I played in 6 tournaments on the internet, made 3 final tables and a 12th place finish. On Friday night I finished 6th out of 524 in a $5 + .50 tourney on UB...good for a $91 cash. Saturday I finished 6th out of 173 in a $5 + .50 tourney on Full Tilt, good for $49. I finished 9th out of 50 in a TEC satallite on UB, no prize, but a final table nonetheless. And finally, last night I finished 12th out of around 400. I got $25 for that. Now I understand none of these are big paydays, but I really feel like I'm playing the best poker of my life right now and the big, long awaited "W" is right around the corner.

I just need to catch a break in crunch time. My final hand last night that sealed my 12th place finish was when I was dealt Ac Kc, and had two callers of the 3,000 Big Blind. I figured I could either steal the chips from the limpers, or have a chance to triple up, so I moved all in for about 27,000 more. Well, one guy flopped a set of fives, and that was it for me. I also lost another key hand in that tourney when my A K went up against A J and the guy made a flush with his J c. Bummer huh.

I came in second in a razz sit n go on Full Tilt earlier tonight. I've never played razz, and I really think I could've won it, but I was getting extremely bored, so I loosened up a little trying to get it over, and ended up coming in 2nd. Better than 3rd I guess.

Well that's about it. Nothing else really has been going on in my life the last few days. My sister and I are paying for a trip for my parents to Las Vegas, so I'm pretty excited for them to get the chance to go to Sin City. My dad also seems to be catching the poker bug, so we'll see where that goes.

Until next time...keep ya head up and keep reaching for the stars. (corny, I know)

" I sit in this world watching, listening and learning. All this hell that surrounds me will not bring me down. I am too strong, I love life too much to forget what is possible to attain, if you work hard and never give up."

A Couple of Boring Days

I haven't posted since Tuesday night because...well because there hasn't been much to write about. The past two days have been pretty boring, so I figured I'd save the trouble.

I've been trying to build up my bankroll a little for a trip to Biloxi that I'm taking over Memorial Day, but I haven't been real successful. I keep treading water and staying pretty much even. I have this feeling that I'm really close to making a big score, but it continues to elude me. Hopefully I'll have some good news to post soon. Until then, I'll keep grinding it out.

Well...actually just finished 6th out of 524 in a $5 + .50 tournament. Ended up getting $91.25. It's not a big score, but it's a step in the right direction. Maybe I can use this to get something going.

I imagine that this weekend will be a typical one...boring. Hopefully not, but we'll see. I'll try to post something tomorrow, but if not, Sunday for sure.

Until then, safe travels and God Bless.

" If you have been given the bowl and spoon, rest assured, as it is the nature's way of saying, 'We are going to serve you soon.'"

Today was Better...Sort of

Today started off the same as yesterday. I woke up in a bad mood and didn't really feel very well. I went to work and decided that I needed to take a half day off so I could try to get feeling better, so I worked to 11:45 and then came home. I proceed to sleep from about noon until about 3:45. I felt like a new man when I woke up! I was ready to go! So about 5 I drove to Marion to play a couple of softball games.

Now, before tonight, I hadn't played softball in about 3 years. I figured I'd be way out of shape and embarrass myself. Now although I am out of shape, I actually played pretty well. I hit the ball pretty hard, and really didn't have to play defense because nothing came my way. I'm actually pretty happy with the way I played, even though our team got smoked in both games. That sucked, because I'm not a big fan of losing, but I think we'll be ok after a few games.

I think I might have figured out why I've been in a bad mood the last couple of days. I just realized that I'm probably going to be alone the rest of my life. The realization is a little discouraging, because it's no fun being lonely. Now I don't need to have someone, because I am fully capable of supporting myself, both financially and emotionally, but it would be cool to have someone to share my life with. I guess I'll just have to get used to it, because it doesn't seem that a wife, or even a girlfriend for that matter, are in the cards.

I've also had a pretty important decision weighing on my mind. If I decide to go through with it, it will seem like a step backwards in journey of life. It may in fact be a step backwards. But I really believe that taking this step backwards will lead to a pretty big leap forward. I'm struggling with the decision though, and I think that has contributed to my bad mood.

I haven't talked about poker much lately, because I haven't played as much as I would've liked in the past week. I'm going to start trying to play a little more, so hopefully there will be more poker talk on here soon.

That's all for tonight. Have a good day tomorrow. Who knows, it could be the best day of your life!

" Sometimes only the struggle makes it worth it, only the pain makes it sweet, and only victory is the answer."

So Much For the New Me

Today I woke up in a bad mood and it didn't change all day. I was very tired, grumpy, and I really didn't want to speak to anyone if I didn't have to. I have no idea why I was in this mood, and I have no explanation. It felt like something was bothering me all day, but I really couldn't figure out what it was that was bothering me. So, I just sat at my desk all day and avoided all human contact. Not only was it Monday, but I was in a bad mood, so it made the Monday even worse.

Today why I was sulking I started to think about stupid things. One thing that popped into my mind was the dreams that I have. I don't know why I have dreams that are hardly possible, but I'm sure that everyone has dreams. I think that is what keeps people going. If you didn't have dreams and aspirations, why would you continue to do what you do? If you knew nothing would get better, there would be no sense in continuing. Although most people would think that my dreams are unattainable, I truly believe that I can accomplish the things in my dreams, and as long as I have any life in me, I'm going to keep trying to reach them.

Something I've been blessed with (or cursed with, depending on how you look at it) is the ability to follow through with things. When I was little, I started playing baseball, and it consumed my life until the time I graduated high school. When I get involved in something, it completely consumes my life, and I don't let it go until I'm the best (or the best I can be). The same thing has happened to me with poker. At times poker completely consumes my life, and I'm ok with that right now. I don't have a girlfriend, I don't have a family to take care of, and I have a minimal amount of responsibility right now, so I'm ok with poker being my main concentration. I love playing, and I don't see myself giving it up anytime soon. I've got to be the best, and I won't stop until I am.

I can't think of much more right now, so I'm gonna watch Las Vegas...man that's a good show. Until then, don't you go dying on me!

"Don't give up. Don't ever give up."

Where to Start?

Hope everyone (well the maybe 2 people that actually read this) had a good weekend. I had a pretty decent one. Had fun Friday, had a pretty good time yesterday, and I had a good time today visiting with my parents. I went home to see them today, and it was really good to see them. I'm really close with my parents, and it's been 2 weeks since I've seen them. I have a wonderful family, and I don't know what I would do without them. If anything ever happened to any of them, I would be mentally unstable, and that's no joke. I don't know what I would do with myself.

I also have two brothers and a sister, and to be honest, I'm not as close with them as I would like to be. My two brothers are actually half brothers. We have the same dad but different mothers. I love all of them very much, and I hope that we can gain a closer relationship in the future. I'm sure you'll see me mention my family alot in these entries.

I have so much to write I don't know where to start. This journal thing is really helpful to me, because it lets me get things off of my chest and put my thoughts into words. I look forward to posting in this, and throughout the day I'm always trying to figure out what I'm going to write about.

One thing I realized while playing poker this weekend is that I have a severe lack of self-discipline. I noticed it while playing poker, and this is a vital skill in poker. But, my lack of self-discipline is not confined to the poker table. I'm really pretty lazy and I definetly don't excercise enough. I recently slowed way down on carbonated drinks like pop, but I still need to eat healthier. I'm trying to make myself a better person, and I'm going to work very hard to become more self-disciplined, because I think it could make me a better person in many different ways.

This weekend, mainly today, I realized a few things about poker. The first thing I realized is that when I play my best poker, I can play with pretty much anyone around, except for maybe the pros. I really think that I'm a very good player when I'm playing my best...but that's the problem. My lack of self-discipline doesn't allow me to be at my best all the time. When I'm not my best, I'm an average player at best, and this is when I lose the profit that I've gained when playing at my best. I'm going to make a conscious effort to get myself in the right frame of mind everytime I play, and not play if I don't feel like I can play my best.

Another thing that became painfully obvious is that you have to be mentally unstable to play poker. Poker is a game of skill, with some luck involved. This makes it a very hard game to play, because you could play perfectly, make the right move every single time, and still lose. You can have the best hand to start, and end up in last. Sometimes there will only be 1 or 2 cards in the deck that can save your opponent, and when one of those cards come, it feels like someone just punched you in the stomach. You have to have a very resilent personality to play poker, and almost have to like to take abuse. You can catch bad cards for a month or two at a time, but you have to have confidence in yourself that you will still be able to win. Poker is a game where the obstacle is to make the right decisions, not to win or lose. If you constantly make the right decisions, you'll be a winner in the long run. But it really stings when you make the right decision, and end up a loser in the short run. Like I said, you have to be mentall ill to play poker.

Well, I think I'm going to treat tomorrow as a new beginning...I'm going to change. I'm gonna work on my self-discipline, work on my self-confidence, and try to look at the positive in every situtation. Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life...or at least that's how I'm gonna look at it.

Until tomorrow...let this week be the best week of your life, and God Bless.

" The jump is so frightening between where I am and where I want to be. But for all I may become, I will close my eyes and leap!"

Oh What a Night!

Well...last night was pretty fun. When went to Ohio State and hung out with my buddy Josh and a few of his friends. We started at Josh's place, went over to Ty's (Keith's cousin) and then headed to Hendocks. We had a pretty good time, and I got pretty drunk. Nothing really exciting happened to write about though.

Well, I'm heading outside to play some cornhole...Later!

"Happy are those that dream dreams and are ready to pay the price to make them come true."

Not much today

I've been playing poker all night with my buddies, so I don't have much to post. I ended up a $16 winner, but that took a back seat to the fact that the OC wasn't on tonight because of the president's speech. Come on...couldn't George W. reschedule? Oh well, had a good time with my friends. I ended up 7th out of 17 last night in the freeroll at Bodog. Got drew out on again...imagine that. Had KJ of spades, flop comes J 10 x, I go all in for about 2000, which is about 4th highest stack, get called by chip leader. He's calls 1/2 his stack on AQ and hits his K on the river to give him a straight. I'm used to that kind of crap though.

Not much planned for the weekend as of yet...probably not much will go on. My friends and I used to go out all of the time, but lately we've been pretty boring. It kinda sucks when you're single and you don't go out much, because it's pretty hard to meet new people, but I still have fun with my friends. It would be nice to go out on a date once in awhile, but I guess it saves money by hanging out with my friends. Maybe some day I'll meet someone, but I'm not counting on it. :-)

Today at work was take your child to work day, and there was the coolest little boy there named Gavin. That's a pretty slick name, and he looked a lot like I did when I was 5. He had a big mop of blond hair and bright blue eyes. Man...what I wouldn't do to go back to the days when I was cute! It would be pretty cool to be 5 again...If I only knew then what I know now, my life would be completely different. Oh well, you live and you learn I suppose.

Well that's all for tonight, time to hit the sack...Tomorrow's Friday!!!!

"I'd rather lose knowing my opponent was running for his life than win knowing I was running for mine."